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Mary

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[Jun. 28th, 2005|02:19 pm]

[	mood	\|	dorky	]
[	music	\|	Usher*Yeah	]

well i guess since i have this journal i might as well update..

well hmm..lets see..no me n eric any longer..oh well his loss..i finally got the strength to let go..which hurts but i'm doin good bout it

me n billy are together..i'm so freakin happy..that boy is amazing..everyday we are together is just wonderful..i love it..

my birthday is in 17 days..:p

the trenton street fair ohh wee i cant wait

its not goin to be the same though now that im taken cant have the fun like before..but oh well..

wyandotte fireworks this saturday..goin with billy and krystal..

well i'm going to go and call my baby and get ready..

comment loves..<3

[May. 23rd, 2005|04:15 pm]

[	mood	\|	pissed off	]
[	music	\|	Lil Jon N Eastside Boys*Bitch	]

I'M GOIN BACK TO USING MY LJ NAME.... lost_in_dreams_
so if ur added on this one and wanna read the old/new one..add me..and more than likely ill add u back!!!

all i know is where we been and what we've been through...*

[May. 23rd, 2005|12:21 pm]

[	mood	\|	blah	]
[	music	\|	Boys II Men*Its So Hard To Say Goodbye	]

so an update on this lj......

people suck!

kurt leaves tuesday to go back to army!

my bday is in 52 days!

i watched napoleon dynamite i didnt really think it was that funny!

its rainy and crappy out..makes me very very very very very sad!

dennys was fun last nite!

yep thats it!

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[May. 18th, 2005|10:37 am]

[	mood	\|	curious	]
[	music	\|	watchin dont be a menace	]

this is an update...im hungry..........

i have nthing to update bout.......

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here in the dark in these final hours..i will lay down my heart..

[May. 15th, 2005|09:48 am]

[	mood	\|	okay	]
[	music	\|	Bonnie Raitt*I Cant Make You Love Me	]

well things have been ok..

krystal came over yesterday i was sooooo freaking hyper..

ya nothing has been new at all..i basically live just a boring ol' life ..

yep..i'm goin to go update my other lj...

ill update later..

figured i'd update..

[May. 11th, 2005|08:19 pm]

[	mood	\|	crappy	]
[	music	\|	Cauterize*Ill Cry Tomorrow	]

Hmm..what to update...

not much really...life pretty much just blows...

my birthday is in 65 days
the trenton street fair is the day after my bday..which makes me uber excited...ever since 7th grade i've gone..it was kind of a ritual for me tressa and miranda..but last year it was me n kay kay and my sister emily..fun times..a little crappy the 2nd day but it was ok..i guess..

so what else is up..hmm...i got some new pics..took em yesterday when i was sittin on the porch with my mom..

oh yeah..my brother and michelle are having a boy..makes me so happy..

well here u go felicia here is the update for u..

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[May. 4th, 2005|09:40 am]

[	mood	\|	crushed	]
[	music	\|	Rascal Flatts*Im Moving On	]

listening to certain songs on these rascal flatts cd reminds me of the times.....the times at the house..when me n krystal would do the dishes..or just hanging out..*sigh*...now its like we dont even talk anymore..i mean me n krystal talk still of course..but we dont talk to the other 2..*sigh*..

well ya..this is my update.....

i a m i n a c r u s h e d m o o d

Comments..<3

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i feel like crap..

[May. 3rd, 2005|04:52 pm]

[	mood	\|	crushed	]
[	music	\|	Usher*Nice N Slow	]

ok so ill update..i missed updating some things in the other lj..

so ill update them in here..

billy isnt really talkin to me..he said some mean shit which really pissed me off..

krystal owes me a penny..

im hoping i talk to eric today/tonight..if i dont..we all know how im going to be..*sigh*..

um what else is new..

im totally exhausted...my whole body just aches..

I dont know im goin to go......

*..u dont know me..*

[Apr. 27th, 2005|06:57 pm]

[	mood	\|	bouncy	]
[	music	\|	Garth Brooks*Thunder Rolls	]

So time for an update...

i had a slurpee yesterday.. :p ..

billy is an ass..hes ignoring my calls..whatever..fine with me..

i had kfc today.. :) ..the only thing that could make me even happier is some DQ.. :p

yep here is my lovely update..enjoy.....

im going to go update in the other lj..hehe..buh bye!

[Apr. 27th, 2005|11:44 am]

[	mood	\|	happy	]
[	music	\|	Keith Sweat*Nobody	]

im hungry.....i want ....a salad..with tomatoes cucummbers and ranch..MmM..

oh boy my cramps hurt...stupid !

im goin to go smoke a cigarette and eat...lay around n watch tv..

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[Apr. 25th, 2005|06:15 pm]

[	mood	\|	happy	]
[	music	\|	Hoobastank*Too Little Too Late	]

( some more boredom )

fill it out..puh puh please..

[Apr. 24th, 2005|07:55 pm]

[	mood	\|	ecstatic	]
[	music	\|	krystal talking on the phone	]

1. Have we kissed?:
2. Do you want to?:
3. What would you like our relationship to be?:
4. Have we dated?:
5. Did you like it?:
6. Do you want to date?:
7. Are we close friends?:
8. Would you be here if I needed you?:
9. Are you attracted to me?:
10. Mentally, sexually, or both?:
11. Do you love me?:

Appearance
Do you like my-

12. Face?:
13. Eyes?:
14. Lips?:
15. Body?:
16. Arms?:
17. Legs?:
18. Clothes?:
19. Ass?:
20. Hands?:
21. Hair?:

Do think I'm-

22. Sexy?:
23. Beautiful?:
24. Hot?:
25. Cute?:

Personality

Do you think I'm-
26. Crazy?:
27. Nice?:
28. Fun to be around?:
29. Funny?:
30. Annoying?:

Would you..

31. Share chocolate with me?:
32. Spend a weekend with me?:
34. Hook up with me?:
36. Care if I ran away?:
37. Care if I died?:
38. Miss me if I left?:
39. Hang out with me?:

What would you do if..

40. I kissed you?:
41. You found out I was missing?:
42. You found out I was in the hospital?:
43. You found out I was dead?:
44. I cried?:
45. I asked you for help?:
46. I told you I loved you?:
47. I told you I hated you?:
48. Someone told you I wanted you to kiss me?:
49. Someone told you I had a crush on you?:

In the last week have you..

50. Wanted to kiss me?:
51. Wanted to see me?:
53. Wanted to tell me you loved me?:
54. Wanted to spend alone time with me?:
55. Wanted to get to know me better?:
56. Thought about me?:
57. Missed me?:
58. Wanted me?:
59. Seen me?:
60. Kissed me?:

Have I..

61. Kissed you?
62. Hugged you?
63. Told you I loved you?:
64. Made you happy?:
65. Made you sad?:
66. Made you angry?:
67. Made you feel better if you were upset?:

Are you..

68. Happy you know me?:
69. Going to post this so I can answer it?:

[Apr. 24th, 2005|11:08 am]

[	mood	\|	cold	]
[	music	\|	Rascal Flatts*Bless The Broken Road	]

( BoReD )

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quiz thing..again..i get bored..

[Apr. 23rd, 2005|06:01 pm]

[	mood	\|	happy	]
[	music	\|	Mariah Carey*We belong together	]

x:Piercings = 1 on each ear..2 on my left ear on the cartilidge,my nose,bellybuton
x:Tattoos = tribal thing on my lower back..
x:Height = 5'1..im short i know
x:Shoe size = 6 1/2
x:Hair color = reddish brown
x:Siblings = oh man..4 stepbrothers 2 stepsisters 1 brother

LAST...
x:Movie you rented = I dont even know its been so long
x:Movie you bought = i never buy movies
x:Song you listened to = 2-pac still ballin
x:Song that was stuck in your head = 50 cent-just a lil bit
x:Cd you bought = uh,let me think...lil wayne
x:Cd you listened to = pink
x:Person you've called = Billy
x:Person that's called you = Eric..last night
x:Tv show you've watched = Next
x:Person you were thinking of = hm...
x:Friend you made = Billy

DO...
x:You have a crush on someone = maybe..
x:You wish you could live somewhere else = sometimes..yeah..
x:You think about suicide = nah
x:You believe in online dating = nah
x:Others find you attractive = yea..
x:You want more piercings = no..
x:You drink = not really
x:You do drugs = havent in a LONG time
x:You smoke = yeah
x:You like cleaning = not really..i have to really be in the mood for it
x:You like roller coasters = NOOOO
x:You write in cursive or print = both

FOR OR AGAINST...
x:Long distance relationships = for
x:Using someone = against..!!!!
x:Suicide = against, but if u wanna die do what ya want
x:Killing people = against..haha..even though krystal may think different cuz she seems to think im a killer
x:Teenage smoking = whatever
x:Doing drugs = it dont matter
x:Driving drunk = against
x:gay/lesbian relationships = if you like touching the same thing u got then for. but what fun is that?
x:soap operas = For

FAVORITE...
x:Food = Chicken
x:Song = Hmm...there are ALOT
x:Thing to do = go out with my friends
x:Thing to talk about =well me n krystal talk bout the same thing..boys..food..music
x:Sports = basketball
x:Drinks = water
x:Clothes = tee shirts tank tops and jeans
x:Movies = alot!!!
x:Band/singer = alot
x:Holiday = Xmas and thanksgiving

HAVE YOU...
x:Ever cried over a girl = a friend..ya
x:Ever cried over a boy = seriously what girl hasnt?
x:Ever lied to someone = ya
x:Ever been arrested = what noo..ok once..ok twice..damnit fine three times!

WHAT...
x:Shampoo do you use = tresseme
x:Shoes do you wear = etnies
x:Are you scared of = dying alone,spiders,

NUMBER...
x:Of times I have been in love? = once...or maybe 2 times...:-/
x:Of times I have had my heart broken? = 2 times
x:Of hearts I have broken? = 1 as far as i know of..mikey
x:Of girls I have kissed? = 4
x:Of boys I have kissed? = umm...i know this hold on..20 something? maybe a few more
x:Of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 2
x:Of people I consider my enemies? = 2
x:Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = i dont know
x:Of scars on my body? = there are alot
x:Of things in my past that I regret? = 1

FAVORITE...
x:Disney movie = THE LITTLE MERMAID and ALADDIN
x:Word = glow
x:Nickname = uh..mary mo
x:Guy name = eric,jason,justin,shaun
x:Girl name = uh..i dont know..
x:Eye color = Baby blue
x:Flower = ROSES
x:Piercing = nose

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
x:Pretty = Once n a while
x:Funny = hell ya
x:Hot = ...sometimes
x:Friendly = soemtimes
x:Amusing = oh yeah!
x:Ugly = eh..
x:Loveable = yeah!
x:Caring = Sometimes
x:sweet = yup
x:dorky = sometimes..:-p

[Apr. 22nd, 2005|10:19 am]

[	mood	\|	crushed	]
[	music	\|	Beatles*Not A Second Time	]

BLAH...

today sucks....no cigarettes

yesterday i hung out with billy n kay kay..it was a whole lot of bitterness...got a hoody...

yep enjoy..

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(no subject)	[Apr. 21st, 2005\|02:52 pm]
i have a new lj..ill be writing in this one still..but the other one will be friends only..there will be a very very select few people who will be added..
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[Apr. 21st, 2005|11:54 am]

[	mood	\|	frustrated	]
[	music	\|	Al Green*Im Still In Love With You	]

so yeah..im better today..

billy was an asshole last night..but he apologized today..i havent forgave him yet..

i called someone a dick..im sorry..but i was upset and pissed off..

dominick took pictures on my phone..i deleted em..i didnt want that shit on my phone..sometimes it makes me wonder how old people are..

i have no cigarettes...friends...life...money...

Comments <3

*..what the fuck ever..*

[Apr. 20th, 2005|03:30 pm]

[	mood	\|	pissed off/upset/worthless	]
[	music	\|	Hawthorne Heights	]

it amazes me how nice people are to u ...then when something goes wrong how big of dickheads they are to u..

i feel like complete shit..u think i dont but i do..ur not here..u dont know the stress i've gone through to do this for u..

i cant help it that it didnt go through but damn I TRIED...thats all that i can do..sorry its not good enough for u..

im seriously really pissed off and really upset..

i need comments to cheer me up...Puh Puh Please....

go ahead and be a dick to me..sorry i cant always do exactly what u fuckin want!

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[Apr. 20th, 2005|02:01 pm]

[	mood	\|	crappy	]
[	music	\|	Kelly Clarkson*Because Of You	]

so today was once again another bad day...

i officially have no money..0 dollars...the cd my aunt left me i have to pay taxes on it..which is a whole lot..so now i have 0 dollars..they have a hold on my moms account until i pay it..cuz my money is in her bank account..which sucks..i cant give the 400 dollars that i have to..which really sucks..cuz now its goin to be like my word was shot to hell..it sucks alot..i've had bad days the last 3 days..for once i want to wake-up and not have a bad day..i was really excited to give the money i had to so everything would be ok..but no of course now its not........i hate life..i hate the government..i feel like complete shit right now..

yesterday was soooooooo beautiful..me n emily went to the store to get cigarettes then to mcdonalds..then back here and watched sweet home alabama and hung out..it was good..since everyone i had plans with yesterday all hoed me out..

krystal starts her job today..good luck..love u!

i have a freaky horoscope today..if it comes true im goin to have a heart attack..which i guess wont be that bad..

im sorry i cant get u ur money today...i know ur going to be mad at me for it..im sorry i really am..i told u already i will do whatever i can do to get u ur money...so thats what i have to do..i just hope that u dont get too pissed off at me for this..i cant help that shit keeps happening..its just my luck for it to get all messed up..

im in a really bad mood and everything has just fallen apart..

im goin to go and get ready..

Comments To Cheer Me Up Please...I really need it!!!

[Apr. 19th, 2005|09:02 pm]

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mood

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wow it was beautiful today...too bad its going to be cold tomorrow..whats up with this weather..thats alright cuz in like..11 days ill be arizona..

blah im soo hott..im waitin for emily to get out of the shower so i can wash this make-up off my face..

finally my cellphone is turned back on..

oh man my mom made chicken today it was damn good..

i like when i get hoed out by people...*yells*

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